boy 1:i like to play with sharp objects

boy 2:i like to play with knives

boy 1:i like to play with explosives

boy 2:i like to play with TNT

boy 1:i like to play with matches

boy 2:i like to play with fire

boy 1:i like to play with my girl friend

boy 2:i like to play with her too!^^

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Yeah.. Im reposting some old stuff lol

Okay its winter. Getting more depressed, getting more cold, getting more horny, and getting more moody. I love winter, but i noticed that this time of the year always fucks up my emotions. One moment Im all cheerful and happy, the next depressed, sad and angry and wanting to rip someones eyeballs out.. Gah..

And i guess its a trend here on dA: "Im leaving dA and nevr coming back!" OMG so fuckin scary.. But they always come back XP I mean seriously, if you got personal stuff you gotta take care of or is going thru, then damn, go deal with that first.. But dont make it all dramatical and say "Im leaving dA for good!" I know some of the people you meet on her is fuckin retards that dont give a shit about your feelings and could care less about you and dont care if they hurt you or not and may have played with your heart a little bit, but come on! Those type of ppl dont mean shit to you so chill! Relax man! take a fuckin chill pill!!

Ive also noticed that most people dont even read journals anymore! And maybe thats because most of the people that post em, including me, talk about pointless shit! I mean seriously, YAY your cat gave birth! Awww im so sorry you lost your favorite pencil! ANd omfg for real!? you bought new shoes!? D: Geez man!

And i know you guys are just shakin your head to this but i dun care.. im just ranting cuz im an emotional reck right now.. so much shit goin on at home and in school.. So friends, please text or call Kea.. or email or im me.. thanks..

Quotes...

"the greatest weakness of most human beings is their hesitancy to tell others of how much they love them while theyre still alive.."

"never part without loving words to think of during your absence. It may be that you will not meet again in life.."

"our physical bond is temorary, only our love is enternal.."

"a true friend is the greatest of all blessings and the one which we take the least thought to acquire.."

"no greater grief than to remember the days of joy when misery is at hand.."

"the supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved.."


The Story..

I know none of you even read this, but I just found out that my momʻs best friend, Aunty Angie just passed away today.. When I seen my mom break down crying like that, I didnt know what to do.. It hit me hard in the stomach that something really bad must have happened and i thought, "oh no..."
My Aunty lived in Las Vegas. But for along time now shes been suffering from diabetes, and she lost a leg, couldnt see thru one eye and the other eye was like looking thru a straw, she had really really bad diabetes and was on oxygen too.. But my moms been planning for a while now to go up and see her really good friend. She was suppose to go last year around christmas time, but didnt, cuz she wanted her family to have a good christmas. And we did. I knew exactly how hard that decision was to make for my mom. And i thank her and appreciate her deeply. And this year she was surely going to go. Planning that when we go to Disney Land, we could take a drive and go see Aunty Angie.. But that never happened...
I feel horrible and miserable for my mom. Cuz she didnt get to carry out her promise to my aunty: that she would come and visit her before she leaves us on this earth.. Fuck man.. Im crying really hard right now and it hurts soo much... Im thinking of how my mom feels, how she wishes she could turn time around and get to see her friend one last time.. How i bet she regrets staying home last christmas for us.. But i know my mom.. she knows that was her decision then, and she is happy that we were happy.. Yet she wishes she could see her friend..
I mean, that was her BEST friend. If it wasnt for aunty angie, I wouldnt be here right now man!!! If it wasnt for aunty angie, my mom and dad would have NEVER met!!! My mom and aunty went thru alot together in their lives... I just wish i could change time, so that mom would have been able to see her sooner.. Fuck man...
Im thinking of my cousins, auntys kids.. Gaahhhh!!! Their mom is gone... I dont even know if theyre dad is still alive or what! *turns her face down and cries harder and harder into her shivering palms* I remember the day when my dad passed away.. I still will never forget that day.. how i felt.. how devistated i was.. When i look back at my childhood when my father was alive, it seems like a dream.. like its happened soooo long ago.. Yet its only been four years! Ahh.. My cousins... Im so sorry TwT
I feel like shit right now you guys...
Im just happy that my aunty isnt suffering anymore.. And I hope and pray that Jehovah will put his hand over us and heal our emotional wounds. Help us remember aunty angie and let our mourning and grief and pain and sorrow just disappear in the Kona breeze... Watch over my cousins and my mother.. My loving, kind, and strong mother.. Help them Jehovah.. Ad thank you for everything you do for us..
In your Son, Jesus Christ I pray,
Amen...